To be content..

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As I am sitting in my car eating cereal with dried milk(the cereal dried up the milk in the bowl…(comment for more explanation :))…I am remembering a prayer that I prayed MONTHS AGO: “Help me to be content in little and in much, help me to depend on you…” I prayed those words along with a few more. So, as I am sitting my car eating cereal with dried milk I am remembering this prayer…
I asked my Heavenly Father to help me to be content! I asked him to help me be depended on him! I prayed this MONTHS AGO, but it was NOW that I was experiencing this roller coaster of life called “hardships!” It is now that things in the home is getting complicated, my school work is falling behind and my work hours have been diminishing.

I asked God for this MONTHS AGO… and this is the time when it is meant for me to experience this. I was never a fan of people who went to events JUST because “free food” was offered. I’ve never been the one who talked about finances because everything was always paid on time. I never complained about my work hours because my job was never a necessity but a want/something to pass time.

I never depended on my job to pay for anything, it was just something I chose to do. So When other people would complain about their bills and whatnot, I never cared because honestly I never had to experience that until NOW!
I was so used to being treated like a princess! Everything I wanted, I got! So when it all of the sudden stopped I did not know what to do! I cried and whined! I wondered why this was happening to be! I totally forgot that I prayed that prayer!

My mentality started to shift. I thought twice before going to the store or even out to eat with friends. I thought twice about going somewhere other than “church, school or work” because I did not to waste unnecessary gas on nonsense.

I found myself calculating my hours and check THREE times(maybe five) to see if I was paid correctly! Something I never did! I always assumed I was paid right ( just being honest!). I found myself dividing my paycheck to make sure that I can pay my “needs.”
But most of All I found myself DEPENDING on Jesus Christ more!

I was always depended on him before but I found myself not depending on my job because they can call me and ask me not to come in(happened before…) but I asked HIM to provide! Scriptures about faith and trusting in God started flowing out!!

-“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”-Proverbs‬ ‭3:5-6‬ ‭

-“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.”-Matthew‬ ‭7:7-8‬ ‭

-“Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.”-Philippians‬ ‭4:11-12‬

-“But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”-Philippians‬ ‭4:19‬ ‭

Scriptures such as those started to replay in my head repeatedly! Songs such as “Breathe by Aaron Moses… Abba by Michelle Danae…and Breakthrough by Eddie James” started to encourage me!!!!
If it was up to me, I would not have chosen this time to go through this but God has a reason and a purpose! It has made me mature and wide-eyed when it comes to paying attention to budgeting and what I am doing with my finances and my time. Its making me focus on what is truly important!
And throughout all of this, the great part is that even throughout this rollercoaster…. MY CAR ALWAYS GETS GAS! It may seem like nothing to someone but IT IS AMAZING to me!!!!!
Sometimes as human beings we may forget about our prayers, but if it lines up with God’s plan for our life it will come to pass!

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”-Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11‬ ‭

Even it is seems harsh, God is an EXCELLENT father who only wants the best for us, so when it seems tough HANG in there!!!!!

P.s. Can you find the scriptures below?:)

“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Be Blessed, Be BOLD, and don’t Forget that you are fearfully and wonderfully made.